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| Buahaha!! Guess who's back!! With more goodness!!
lies and drugs -3-
After finishing a lot of the recording process, the members of Dir en Grey decided to go eat somewhere.
It was very rare that they all went to eat together, but because Die suggested it, they decided to do so.
"It's been such a long time since we last ate together!" Kaoru smiled and looked over at Shinya. "Right?"
Shinya briefly shifted his gaze towards Toshiya and then looked back over at Kaoru and smiled. "..Yeah."
Toshiya's face was extremely pale, and although he normally ate and drank a lot, he didn't even touch the various plates of food and the glass of beer in front of him.
Kyo, noticing Toshiya like that, tapped the bassist on the shoulder. "You can go home if you want, Toshi," He whispered.
Toshiya nodded, and sighed. "I think I'm gonna go home for tonight, guys-" He looked up, and stopped.
His eyes met Shinya's.
Toshiya bit his lip and tried to tell him how much he loved him... with only his eyes, and he hoped that Shinya would understand.
As if he did, the drummer's eyes brimmed with tears and he looked away, down at his plate. But Toshiya could not avert his gaze and he forgot about going home.
Kyo smiled a little as he saw the two, and tilted his head to the side. "Do you want to stay a little longer?" He asked, and Toshiya nodded slightly.
Thankfully, Kaoru did not even notice the two, and he was talking with Die about music-related things.
"Die, can you play the piano?" Kaoru drunkedly asked the other.
"No... But I can play the guitar very well!" He answered as he chuckled, equally drunk.
"I know you can. And so can I. Maybe you should sing some time, instead of Kyo."
"Hey, don't take my job," Kyo frowned as he playfully punched Kaoru's shoulder. He then took a sip of the beer and smiled. "This beer is so good!"
Koru nodded. "I know. But the food is good too. Have some!" Kaoru smiled widely as he held out a Shuumai(like.. a mini dumpling thing? O_O ).
"Kaoru-kun... Are you drunk?" Kyo said without accepting the food. He ignored the shuumai and took one for himself, and popping into his mouth happily, he smiled. "You're right, it is good."
"Kyo! You meanie! Fine, I have Shinya. Ne?" Kaoru pouted as he hugged Shinya.
Shinya blushed. "K-kaoru kun..." He said, looking up at Toshiya.
Toshiya was looking down, trying to ignore the action.
"Shinya...?" Kaoru looked up at Shinya, leaning towards the drummer's face.
"What?"
"You love me, right?"
"What...?"
"You love me..." He lightly rubbed the drummer's thigh as he continued to stare up at the him. "Right?"
Shinya closed his eyes tightly. "Ye-"
Toshiya suddenly stood up, almost tipping his chair over. He then started to walk towards the door out of the store, and stopped. "I'm.. gonna go home." He mumbled, and started to make his way out again when suddenly Shinya raised his voice.
"K-Kaoru ku...!"
Toshiya looked back to see what had happened. And when he saw, the world around him stopped.
Kaoru's lips were on Shinya's. Toshiya just stared, and when everything started to move again Shinya had pushed Kaoru away and he was wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.
"Why...?" Kaoru's eyes were wide, and he just stared up at Shinya with confusion in his eyes.
"I.. I still love Toshiya! I don't know... But yesterday Toshiya wasn't normal. I know that he was lying. I don't know why he would lie to me like that, but I know it was fake." Shinya closed his eyes and bit his lip, inconfident in his own words.
The tears that Toshiya had been keeping in all along spilled at that moment. Toshiya choked out a sob as he ran over to Shinya and wrapped his arms around the drummer. "I'm sorry Shinya... I'm sorry..."
"I... don't get you guys!" Kaoru yelled, and he ran out of the restaurant.
"And I don't get what's going on!" Die cried out, unable to understand what had happened.
"You don't need to," Kyo laughed, and then he smiled smugly.
"Toshiya... I love you." Shinya whispered while nuzzling against the bassist's shoulder. He was glad that he had been right.
Everything seemed to go back to normal. The four Dir en Grey members drank and ate, all the while wondering what Kaoru was doing.
Toshiya was happy, and Kyo was happy for the two.
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Buahahaha. If you think I'll let the story end happily, you're WRONG!!!! muahaha.
I'll continue.. some other day +v+ | | |
| WARNING
WARNING!!!!!
There is... guyxguy ..... stuff O , o
Dont read on if it bothers you or if you're a guy... and stuff.
There, you cant say I didnt warn you. If you read on, it means that you're NOT going to complain to me, and shit lik that. I'll bite you >x
Today feels wierdly long. All we're doing is Talking about our new song. I feel kind of sleepy, too. To wake myself up, I get up to go get myself a drink.
As I push the button to the drink I want, I start to hear the sound of shoes. This sound is unmistakibly...
"Reita," I look to my side and I see Reita, walking slowly towards me.
"Hey, Aoi."
"What's up?"
"I just wanted to get something to drink. you too?"
"Yeah," I say. What do I do? Alone with Reita. It makes me nervous. Just yesterday, he was holding my hand and everything. I haveto get back to Uruha as soon as possible. "Well, I already got mine, so I'm gonna go now. bye." I say, but as I turn to leave, Reita grabs my arm. and suddenly, My back is against Reita's chest, and he has his arms around me.
"Let go.."
"Aoi, Why can't you just be mine?" He mumbles right by my ear with his low voice. Unconsciously, my body trembles.
I feel Reita's long fingers trace my thighs as he planted kisses on my neck. I don't understand why I'm shivering at his touch.
"Reita... Please, stop?" As if asking him politely would get him to stop.
But instead of stopping, he turns me around so that I'm facing him. then, he kisses me. At first it's a light, light kiss, but soon he has his tongue inside and I can't breathe. I want him to stop, and I try to push him away, but he takes my hands and slowly pushes me to a wall. I can't run.
finally he pulls away from me and smirks while looking down at me. I struggle to catch my breath.
"Stop? you can't be serious. you know you like it. you know you can't resist me. Aoi, tell me that you don't want me to stop. Tell me how you really feel," he whispers as he combs his fingers through my hair.
"I...I..." I'm still breathing hard, and I can't get myself to talk properly. "I...."
I close my eyes.
"I don't want you to stop."
He smiles, kisses me, and leads me to an unused room near the vending machine.
"Ruki, please, let me go?"
"no!! There are already two people out!!"
"What is this, a school!?
"Shut up! you just can't go!"
Reita and Aoi are not coming back. it's taking them too long to just buy drinks. something must be wrong. But Ruki, who's acting like.. a retarted teacher or something, is not letting me out!
I just hope Aoi's not in any trouble...
"Aoi, I love you... Aoi... Tell me that you love me? Be mine forever? Nee, Aoi..."
"R,Rei... aah..! Rei,..ta...!!"
"Aoi, I love you.."
I let out one last scream as I hear Reita whispering "I love you" to me again, and then everything blacks out.
"Well... To tell the truth, 45 minutes is a little too long...."
"right!? so, let me go!!"
"Well...."
"Let him go, Ruki."
"... Fine. Go. but come back if you don't see them!!"
I jump up and rush out the room.
Please let him be safe.
I see Reita walking out of a room. he's buttoning up his shirt. Please, tell me that he was with some random girl staff.....
He sees me, and smiles. the nerve. I walk up to him.
"When I walk in there, I better not see... him."I say, giving him a glare.
But all he does is shrug and smile more. "You'll have to see for yourself, ne?"
I feel like slapping him but I resist the urge and run to the door.
"...!!"
Aoi was unconscious, lying down on a sofa with only his shirt layed on him.
I lose my words. I swallow my tears of anger, as I softly shake him. "Aoi? Aoi..?"
He moves his head a little, and brings his hand up to rub his eyes. but as soon as he sees me, he pushes me hard, and backs away as much as he can on the sofa.
"Leave me alone..."
"!?"
"Please, just.. go.." He's sobbing loudly and pointing at the door. I don't know what happened, but I leave.
There's someone else I need to talk to anyway.
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| Uruha is always so nice to me. He always believes me. And that's why I love him forever. I want him to stay by me.
I thought that what happened that night was what I had been feeling all along. the "Bad feeling". I thought that nothing else would happen again. But somewhere deep inside, something was warning me.
The next day, Reita came apologizing to me and Aoi. I said it was okay, because I know that nothing happened between them.
But to tell the truth, I'm as worried as hell. Aoi and Reita are very close. Also, Aoi is very weak against seduction(xD), so if Reita tried even a little, Aoi might start to like Reita more than me... I keep thinking these things. I'm so worried. And that's why I got so upset yesterday. all that worry was piling up on me.... well at least in the end everything turned out well.
even during recording, I look outside my booth and theyre always talking about something happily. I can't hear what teyre saying, even though I'm dying to know.
Does aoi really love me?
Aoi, I don't know if I can go on with all of this doubt....
********I'm sorry grace, my mom keeps coming in my room! ::kills:: please PLEASE send psych some other time? | | |
| UNTITLED UruhaxAoi
"Thank you very much"
We finally get to my house. I don't know what to do. I don't want to believe that Aoi was cheating on me. But they were holding hands, and walking down the street. what else could it mean?
This is why I told him not to go too near Reita.
Aoi looks at me suddenly. "..what..?"
..Was I just saying that outloud?!.....I'm so stupid...
As if to hide my burning red face, I pull Aoi into a tight embrace.
"wha--"
"Aoi, I love you."
"You're not mad at me anymore?"
"You didn't do anything, right?"
"yeah.. I just, felt that something bad was going to happen, and I didn't want to be alone... but then you seemed like you had st, stuff.. to,.... d...do..."
"!? Aoi, are you crying!?"
"Ofcourse not!" He said, but I could definitely feel that my shoulder was slightly wet. I couldn't understand why he was crying, but all I could do for him was to hold him closer.
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-cont-
Toshiya saw.
He saw Kaoru pouring a small bottle of clear liquid into one of the cups.
He was on his way to get some extra clothing since his ones that he was wearing were covered in blood, and also something to disinfect his wound. At least the blood had slowed it's endless flowing.
When Kaoru noticed him standing by the door, he laughed. "This... is a drug."
Toshiya didn't say anything. No need to state the obvious, he thought. But what he really wanted to know was the effect. What it would do to his most important person.
"This is a really interesting drug, actually. It takes effect two days after someone drinks it. And something changes inside them. Ofcourse, I'm not telling you what. That would ruin all of the fun, right?" Kaoru winked at Toshiya, then took the two cups back to where Shinya was sitting.
Toshiya had a really bad feeling about this. But he wasn't really sure of what he could possibly do. If he did anything wrong, Shinya might find out, and that would be the end of everything.
All he could do was grit his teeth and watch.
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The next day, as Toshiya was about to walk into the room(where Dir en Grey meet), he overheard Shinya annd Die's conversation.
"What!? you broke up with him!?" To Die, who was sick the other day and wasn't here, it was new information.
"Yeah. But it really was horrible. I didn't know that Toshiya was such a bad person."
"...I'm not so sure he is.." Die sighed.
"But he was! And I'm proof." Shinya insisted.
"Maybe he's being threatened by someone?..........Like I know, Kaoru!"
Toshiya felt himself get goose bumps as he listened to how psychic Die was. Maybe, if Die could keep convincing him---
"No way. Kaoru is a really nice guy."
"But seriously, Kaoru has a thing for you!"
"I.. know that.." Shinya's voice turned into a little mumble as Toshiya imagined Shinya blushing while he said this.
"So maybe Kaoru thought Toshiya was in the way?"
Toshiya felt so greatful to Die.
"Really, that's impossible!" Shinya was not even close to be convinced.
Toshiya sighed, and walked slowly into the room.
"Morning," Toshiya said to Die, although he ignored Shinya. No excess talking is allowed.
" 'morning..." Die answered quickly, noticing how heavy the air got all of a sudden. Then he started to get up to move to another chair, because Toshiya always sat next to Shinya.
But today, Toshiya walked straight past the baffled Die, and sat across from them.
Shinya just kept his hands on his lap and silently stared at the notes in front of him.
Die felt so awkward. 'what the hell am I supposed to do at a time like this??'
All of a Sudden, Toshiya's phone rings, and everyone jumps at the sound. Toshiya grimaces as he slowly gets his phone from his pocket, and looks at the message.
----My Shinya----
"Goddamn..!" Toshiya hit the table hard.
Die jumps yet again. "What!?"
Toshiya realizes what he's done, and shakes his head apologetically. "nothing.. nothing..."
'Am i to tell Die everything? Would he believe me?' Toshiya couldn't decide. Telling him would have pros.... as well as cons.
'I'm not gonna tell him just yet,' he declares. He can't say anything about it in front of Shinya anyways.
The door opens, and Kyo quietly walks in. Then he silently walks next to Toshiya, and sits down. As soon as he does, he takes out his phone, and starts typing something up on it.
I saw what happened yesterday.
I saw what Kaoru did to you.
Toshiya felt his heart skip a beat. As he makes his eyes go wide, he takes out his own cellphone, and furiously types something back.
Don't tell Shinya. I'll kill you.
Kyo reads it, and then laughs. With a small smile, he types back his own answer.
I know you never would be able to.
Toshiya nervously laughs a little. "thank you," he mumbles. Because Toshiya was able to laugh even a bit for the first time since yesterday.
Kyo smiles back, and says "You're welcome," as if he understood.
"Secret notes passed over phone... Since when were you guys so friendly to eachother?"
Toshiya and Kyo look up, to see Kaoru standing over them with a grin.
Toshiya's trembling starts again, and when kyo notices this, he glares a Kaoru.
Die didn't understand anything that was going on, and he was just looking at the three one at a time. Shinya was staring at Kaoru.
"....We always were. anyway, Let's start Practice."
Thanks to Kyo, the mood went back to normmal, and that days recording ended safely.
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(((I'm listening to "red nosed raindeer" sung by Nightmare while typing this up.... lol)))
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Kyo didn't know what to do.
Toshiya was on the ground, leaning back on a wall, holding tightly onto a wound in his stomach, with a large amount of blood spilling from between his fingers, and Kaoru standing over him with a knife dripping with blood.
Kyo was able to understand what basically happened.
"You are so in my way." Kaoru threw the knife against the wall, and it clattered next to Toshiya.
Toshiya was trembling horribly, and was crying silently; he was swallowing back his voice. Toshiya seemed so weak, and kaoru was just glaring down at him with no mercy. 'kinda sounds like one of our songs,' Kyo joked in his head.
Then during the next moment, Kaoru brought out a gun from his back pocket, and he bent his knees and sat down, so that he was eye level with Toshiya.
"Guess what this is?" He waved it in front of Toshiya's face, and then brought it down to the wound in his stomach.
"Ah.." Toshiya gasped in pain as he closed his eyes shut tightly and bit back a scream.
"It hurts, right?" Kaoru's eyes were cold, and calm, as he pushed it harder and harder into Toshiya's stab wound. "If it hurts, just say so. Scream. This is how much it hurt to see you and Shinya flirting around me. Scream. Beg for Mercy. ...... Show me your pain, Toshiya..."
"AAAaaa..!!..ah.." Toshiya was unable to bear it anymore, and let out a scream. It ringed through the air. With whatever strenth he had left, he slowly put his hands over Kaoru's and tried to push it away from himself.
Kaoru sighed, as he got up. Then, he put the gun to Toshiya's head.
Toshiya was crying and letting out sobs as he held his stomach wound.
"Stay away from my Shinya..."
Kyo ran away as quickly as he could before anything else happened. Who was that?? That wasn't the Kaoru he was used to. Kyo just ran into the studio, replaying what had happened in his head, and hoped to god that Kaoru wouldn't kill Toshiya.
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